You did not break my heart, you made me so disappointed.. I don’t see the real you anymore. I watched you change into somebody who you said you would never become, but that was (against all odds) the real you. I will never trust this one again. You should never trust someone that has let you down more then two times. Once was a warning, twice a lesson and anything more than that is just taking advantage. If i hand you the tools to build me up again after all i been trough you can just as easily use the tools to tear me down. How do I know..? Can I trust or should i run away? Run and do all the things I always wanted to do..? London is just around the corner…
The worst part about this is that i Should have known.. I did know… But somewhere along the way, I let my hopes get the better of me and against all my reasonable logic I let myself think we were a possibility.. But we never were and i realizing that once again. That is what disappointing me the most.. But time will find a way… I think that your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows.. Sad but true. Someday i may stop Loving you, but i will never stop caring for you. Deep down I feel sorry for you, because the only one you hurt is yourself. I have as long as i remember been good at fixing things. I fixed you (or I’ m on my way, i do everything i can for you without any reactions from your side). I repaired your broken heart from all the things you been trough. But when you broke me I felt so dumb, because then I realized the only thing i could not fix was myself..
I still Love you from the bottom of my heart.. But don’t take me for granted. It’s your turn to show me what’s really matters..